at the end of every calendar year, i like to reflect back on the year. overall, 2009 was a significant year that both sucked and kicked ass (to put it in juvenile terms). i started my master's in january and made a ton of new friends while teaching at a local university. i had the most amazing valentine's day ever with my two best friends, then one of them moved to dubai. i miss her. in march, i turned twenty-five therefore making me a speed limit. in april, i got a job coaching my high school dance team, and in the summer i taught dance camps with uda. in summary, i successfully returned to the dance industry and made the final decision to stay there, no matter how frugal the lifestyle. in june, i faced my biggest challenge to date and that is when my step-father passed away. in august, i tried something new and made the decision to be set up on a blind date. to this day, i have no idea what compelled me to do that, but in effect i met the love of my life. the series of events are so bizarre but so beautiful at the same time. in october, i spent three weeks in india, performing as a dancer/cheerleader and visiting orphanages. in november, i spent a week in nyc and performed for the macy's t-day parade. in december, i had the best christmas ever with my family as well as my new family (aka, my significant others' others). it was a great year.
for no good reason, i have been exceedingly negative lately. i have yet to figure out what i need to change in my life, or if this is just a prolonged case of pms. regardless, i was challenged to make my entire day today reek of positivity, which is tricky when afflicted with child-like boredom. in 2010, i would like to slow down, breathe, and give thanks daily for the blessings in my life......
i am thankful for my health....especially after witnessing two yarfing kiddos last night (my niece and nephew), one with fluids coming out both ends (ew). my whole parenting plan might be postponed from that traumatic evening.
i am thankful for my family.....the other day i spilled a thirty pound box of kitty litter down my brother's carpeted stairs, but he wouldn't let me clean it up because i was crying so hard. my family understands that i am a mess and accepts me, emotional instability and all. my niece thinks i'm the coolest person ever. so what if she's five years old and doesn't know better?
i am thankful for my talent and creativity.....i will never take this for granted. i will never stop enjoying the simple movement of my arms, hands, torso, head, legs, feet, toes and eyes while dancing. even when i am handicapped due to overuse injuries, i will still give thanks to god through movement and share that joy with others (which might look weird as a cripple).
i am thankful for my amazing friends.....who can turn any frown upside down. who i can trust to go to for advice on anything, no matter how silly. who i can talk to about anything, like funny dreams, crazy thoughts, or even erratic health symptoms (like ibs). they love me just the way i am and i wouldn't change anything about them.
i am thankful for my opportunities....i will never stop acting on my dreams. i will never see something as unattainable but rather believe that i can do anything i set my mind to. also, i am thankful for my brain. yep. i am glad that i am a rational thinker and have enough intelligence to separate reality from make-believe. i pride myself on balancing idealism with realism.
i am thankful for my companion.....who is my strength when i feel weak. who believes in me/us and will never stop. who has given me more love than i imagined possible. who is the most patient man i have ever known as he has helped me realize that i deserve love and i have the capacity to accept it. who i will walk with forever and share dreams with.
bring it on, 2010.
listen to: Closer by Keb' Mo'...."i'm so in love with you getting closer is all i want to do"
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